snoopy big pot sweets party

Things are weird here. It's not all bad-weird; I have been learning a lot lately and making a lot of progress as an actor. Up until late last week I was doing really well hearing messages from the universe and staying open to the truth and not deceiving myself about my flaws and yet still being compassionate towards myself and using the information as an opportunity for growth and change... then I got attacked by a Zen Fascist. I'm still having a lot of internal conflicts about that one.

There's this Buddhist practice called tonglen that I've been mulling for a while where you meditate and you take in the pain in the world and breathe out peace and light and happiness, and while I have some trouble sometimes understanding what that's all about, I don't think I have a choice about figuring it out anymore, I think I have to. I'm beginning to think I'm an easy target... a lot of people have wanted to breathe a lot of fire in my direction since I got here and I have just got to figure out something constructive to do with it all. It's either going to get breathed out as light and peace or it's going to turn into a tumor.